Please GOD

God, i need your help. i made a promise to you, a promise i knew would be excruciating pain to keep. by keeping this promise i’d be giving up the one thing in the world i want the most. i gave it to you, to hold in your hands, and let you have complete control over the situation. i need your comfort on these dark nights when i lie in bed, crying, wondering if i did the right thing. i pray you give me peace not to worry, but to trust you fully, understanding i may not get what i want. i pray that i can accept what your will is, even if its giving that one thing up. i pray you give me the breathes to make it through the day. Lord, i just need you..